My feelings are betraying me. I know, I thought I was strong. In the end, I crumble and fall again. I wish I am strong.
All those words that I say to you was mean and hurtful. I did that because I was so angry and too hurt. But, I never meant it. I know you might be laughing, because in the end I fell. I know some of my friends might get angry with me for apologizing to you, but all the while, during our relationship, I've been taking you for granted. But, I dont blame myself for all these. I know, if I've been nice and give you more attention, maybe you wouldn't flirt, then we won't end this way.
I've missed your warm hugs, your kisses, your affections, your generousity and your care. Most of all, I missed being with you. But, I do hate some of your attitude, but I guess, I should have accepted it. I love you with all my heart.
When I listen to Bon Jovi, Thank You For Loving Me, I can't believe my tears just come out like nobody business and its hard to stop, because each and every part of the words mean something to me. It means being with you. Today, my heart almost stop beating when I bump to a colleague of mine. Becuase he looks like exactly like you. Black wavy hair that I love to run through. Black bushy eyebrows that I love to comb with my fingers. The eyes, that is full of love and affections and the lips that are soft, whenever our lips met. But, there is no boncits.
I know, I should not make this hard for you. But, sometimes, I just wished our hearts changed. But, I'm not sure whether you would want me back. For I've been nothing to you and you've been everything to me.
That was one of the major mistake I did. I pray to him, that I will never do this again. I dedicate this song to you, the one that I will always love, by Bon Jovi, Thank You For Loving Me.
